Post by Deleted on Jun 12, 2016 21:44:34 GMT
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Freedom.
A lot of people don't know what that word really means. They think freedom means you can do whatever you want, whenever you want, then complain when you're made to face the consequences.
Me? I know what freedom really means.
Freedom is walking into a place with a ball and chain around your heart, and coming out walking on air. Freedom is the knowledge that you don't have to hide anything from anyone anymore, that you've turned a page and your slate is clean. Freedom is...freedom is a clear conscience.
And it feels amazing.
The way I've felt since walking out of Whole Lotta Roaches is the best I've felt in years. I feel...well, free. There's nothing weighing on my mind. No skeletons in the closet. No sins to confess. I've atoned, and I've done so in front of the people I care about the most outside of my immediate friends. I feel cleansed.
I'm not going to lie; when I walked out there that day, I was prepared for the worst. I thought I'd be in for a much harder time. After all, I'd been lying to these people – and people in a couple of other companies – for the best part of a year. If it was me at the other end of that, I would have a hard time forgiving whoever did it to me. So I didn't expect them to, either. But I guess they saw I meant every word I said, and decided that was good enough. And I'm thankful for that. I don't expect to become the hero of Pollomania again any time soon, but not having arena after arena hate me is good enough for now. I really wouldn't want every show from now on to be like that night in Montreal.
And speaking of Montreal...
...in Montreal, I retained something I really expected to be taken away from me once I came clean. After all, nobody wants a liar as their Champion, right?! And yet Pollomania officials not only let me keep my title, but they're giving me a chance to become a double Champion. If I come out the winner of my match at Finger Lickin' Fun, I won't just be the Pollomania Supremo Champion...I'll be the new Pollomania Golden Egg Champion as well. Not bad for a liar...
I guess it's how they say: good things happen to good people. For the past year or so, I sort of took the scenic route to being a good person. Now I'm back on track, and the benefits are starting to show. But one thing I know that a lot of people also don't is that freedom is a two-way street. You can't just slack off and expect good things to keep happening to you just because you're free. You have to earn your right to be free. You have to earn your right to do well.
And at Finger Lickin' Fun...I'm going to earn mine.
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